thoughts by pen

Its when the night is quiet, when i can spend time alone in the room when sis is not at home. I will draw. I draw best when I have thoughts running through my head. The pen is my thought, it scribbles and doodles naturally. Its a good feeling to express the thoughts into drawings, and i like what I drew.

When you are old...

It was 4am at a eatery. The uncle who was cooking the noodle was moving really slow. We thought he was just taking his own sweet time but soon we realize he cannot control it. He is not the oldest uncle I have seen working at eatery but he is definitely the slowest. We waited patiently without rushing him, watching his every movement. After he is done, we took our noodles and sat down. There were no other customer, uncle went to an empty seat and sat down looking really tired. He took off his shoe and his feet was black. The skin colour was just black. He sat and wiped his sweat off his forehead and rested. All was done very slowly too. After that he just stared blankly into the air. I pity him and wondered how tough his life is. How is his daily life when he is not at work?

It was early in the morning, I forgot the exact time. I alight from the car and walked to the lift lobby, passing the rubbish chute. A woman sat beside the dirty rubbish chute digging into the plastic bag she found. I do not know what she is looking for but she seem to be looking for something she lost or rather looking for something which she thinks could be still useful. There were roaches crawling around the area she sat. She was not bothered by it, just concentrating looking through the bags. I wondered why she is there, and what is she looking for.

These incidents left me thinking. I pity them yet wonder will I be like that when I am old. Will there be anyone looking after me? Will I have kids who will look after me? People come and they go but who would really stay for you when you got older? Can you really find a soulmate whom you trust to take care of you and live up to the marriage vows? My parents did, mine is a mystery.

The decision.

A decision u have to make which will cost u a lifetime regret. How would u make this decision? No matter how many people u talk to,at the end of the day it is still your decision and only u will look back and wonder if u made the right choice. I wish I could make the choice like every other normal people. Be happy with it and look forward to the future but chances are it's never gonna happen. I am sorry.

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Random

Slept so early at 8pm yesterday night till 7am today. I was still tired. Perhaps sleeping too much caused this. Or perhaps it was Ozzie who woke me up twice in the night
It was a long night. Many dreams which reflects the many thoughts which was going through my head all the time. If only the worries and thoughts could all vanish like the dreams when I woke up.
If only it is another weekend today. I need more rest and peace.
Nontheless hope it will be a good week ahead.


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A Day with friends

Finally Liz decided to step out of Bishan and go to the beach! It was a great catch up with Tushar and Elvis. Havent seen them for the longest time, especially Elvis! We went Cafe Del Mar and the place was packed! Sad to say, service at Cafe Del Mar is not the best around. The staffs only attend to foreigners especiallys ang mo! What is wrong with these people!? They are Singaporean too but yet look down on their own nationality. We requested for a bed seat outdoor but was told it was full house so we could only sit indoor. No one attended to us even though we ask the staff to inform us if there are any empty seats outside. When Elvis reached, he talked to one of the waiters and immdiately we got a seat outside! This is such a disgrace to our country.
Nonetheless we enjoyed the day at the beach. It really feels good to see the sea and the sun again. The sun was hot that day and it made the sunset really nice. I hope there are more of such outings again but it is so difficult to organise one when everyone is so busy. Chances like this are hard to get and should be treasured.

Photos credited to Liz

Morning thoughts

It's back to work and there is nothing happy about it especially when you think of the shit in office and the people u have to face. Sometimes I just wish I could abandon everything and live the life I want. Yes,it is that difficult to have dreams and it is said to better not have any.
Depression mode is back where u just break down for no reason. I need a shoulder.
A draggy month ahead and a draggy life too

A sky like this.. You don't see it that often especially here.

PaintBall

My Team

Ex cols in TT decided for a major meetup and this time we went paintball! The girls borrowed army uniform from the guys and I borrowed from my brother. It was a bit oversize but still wearable. The guys of cos wore their own army uniform. We all looked like we were from the army as a team! It was really fun to see the girls in the army uniform, some thing which we never see before after working together for so long.

Paintball should be named PAINball instead. The pain when you got shot, WOW! Confirm chop guarantee there will be a bruised on you for a week or two to keep you reminded that you have been shot in a game of paintball! Well I did not really get shot, cos I HIDE WELL! YESH! Such a coward. I was trying to get to a safe point to shoot but by the time I reach my safe point, the game ended and my team lost! But at the end of the game in the elimination round, Elsie and I survived cos we did not get shot and of cos its WE HID WELL! So hiding isn't a bad idea after all!